a promise to the stars.

I promised the stars I was not hiding

That my smile wasn’t fading

I promised the moon that my mind was clear

That my heart was no longer wounded

Now all my promises are broken

I'll just tell myself again

I don't need you.

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Now there’s a part of me that can’t let go. It's hard to believe how lost I've become. The world doesn’t look the same to me. There are periods where the world stays bright. Somehow the laughter and smiles warm my heart, and just touch me no matter how broken I felt moments before. They just get through to me. They get through all the doubt and insecurities and take away a seemingly endless pain.I always wonder if you are looking up at the stars like I am. Is it possible that you still listen to the songs we shared? Do you quickly skip them to push away any memories? Contemplating if you regret opening up that part of you to someone else. If you have deemed meeting me a mistake. The slight chance of me crossing your mind nowadays.

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Just feeling a little broken now and then, you know? I was hoping school would take me out of this weird cycle but here I am.